Confusion,
Worry,
Anger.
My heart drums against my chest
rapid staccato to push my blood
Thick
as honey through
petite veins.
My stomach
flip
flops
in that all too familiar fashion.
My brain computes the faces of my peers.
Disbelief,
Defeat,
Broken.
It knows. It always knows before I do.
My feet drag me to the source.
Across what seems no-man's land.
Space and silence seperating
the Ones that Don't Know
and the Ones Who Wish They Didn't.
My ears receive vibrations,
twist them into sound.
I hear the words and reject this miracle
of processing auditory information.
I briefly envy Beethoven.
Hurt,
Heavy,
Nothing.
M
I miss you like I miss the warm Spring days
in the heart of winter.
How I wish the breeze was calm and not biting,
that the sun comforted rather than chilled my skin.
I miss you like the tide does the shore
as the unseen force of the moon pulls
it form its sandy lover all the way from space
and then allows its return yet only for a short while.
I miss you like a child mourns for the loss of its mothers womb.
A pure wholeness that becomes separate
never to be at such peace again.
A rib of Adam spun into its own breath.
I miss you as a friend that was never more
than a heartbeat from my side.
I miss you as a lover who remembers t
Confusion,
Worry,
Anger.
My heart drums against my chest
rapid staccato to push my blood
Thick
as honey through
petite veins.
My stomach
flip
flops
in that all too familiar fashion.
My brain computes the faces of my peers.
Disbelief,
Defeat,
Broken.
It knows. It always knows before I do.
My feet drag me to the source.
Across what seems no-man's land.
Space and silence seperating
the Ones that Don't Know
and the Ones Who Wish They Didn't.
My ears receive vibrations,
twist them into sound.
I hear the words and reject this miracle
of processing auditory information.
I briefly envy Beethoven.
Hurt,
Heavy,
Nothing.
M
I miss you like I miss the warm Spring days
in the heart of winter.
How I wish the breeze was calm and not biting,
that the sun comforted rather than chilled my skin.
I miss you like the tide does the shore
as the unseen force of the moon pulls
it form its sandy lover all the way from space
and then allows its return yet only for a short while.
I miss you like a child mourns for the loss of its mothers womb.
A pure wholeness that becomes separate
never to be at such peace again.
A rib of Adam spun into its own breath.
I miss you as a friend that was never more
than a heartbeat from my side.
I miss you as a lover who remembers t
School's pretty legit. Campus is not too big, food is delicious, classes are boring and full of textbook reading, made a few friends, and get to waste away on dA FB and the rest of the internet all day long. Yeah. I was stressing for nothing.
GAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH~! I LEAVE FOR COLLEGE IN NINE DAYS!!!!! FUCK. ME.
I am so unprepared. Mentally. I have everything I need, I know my roommates (and they are awesome) but I'm not ready to leave friends and family behind. I'm going to live on campus two and a half hours away from home. It's not so far I CANT come home when I'd like but it's far enough to be troublesome to do so. :/
I realize I haven't updated my journal for over a year (until now) which shows how much of a lazy mo fo I am. OH GOD I HOPE THAT DOESN'T CARRY OVER TO SCHOOL!
I also have lots of pictures from my most recent travels to post I just haven't gotten to it...lazy.