Yeah so that whole journal about me getting my Arizona pics edited and on DA....not happening yet. I've been so lazy and unmotivated that I shame myself. But so many things have been happening that are making me depressed and not wanting to do anything thing other than stare at my walls.

I saw my sister for the first time in a year, but I only got to see her for fours days and now I have to wait another 361 days to see her (or more!)

My dad's girlfriend and her fucking annoying son who is a year younger than me moved in.

My love life is there but...not? I don't know how to describe it really. There's a someone and they're in the picture, but not really in it with me. We've seen each other ONCE this summer.

Other small, everyday things that build up.

MOST HORRIBLE, SADDENING, HEARTWRENCHING, TEAR SOBBING, MY LIFE IS GOING TO BE SO EMPTY NOW event that is just about to happen- My best friend is moving to Florida!!!!

She's the only one who's ever TRULY gotten me. I mean there are times when she still thinks i'm the crazy fucked up chick she met in her art class, but knowing her for this past year has made me feel closer to her than any of my other friends that I've had for 10 years! We both talk to each other about things we can't talk to anyone else with, just like TRUE BEST FRIENDS. I don't know if she really considers me a BEST friend or not, but I consider her one. I still have 11 days until she moves but I'm not going to be able to spend EVERY SINGLE ONE of those last days with her and that makes me sad.

Thinking about her moving makes me tear up and I know I'll probably cry like a loser when I see her for the last time (not that I won't ever see her again but still...) and she'll make fun of me for making such a big deal.

Everything just seems to zoom by me as I sit on the couch and watch it all pass by. I want to join in, but they're all too fast for me; summer is halfway through, friends are leaving, jobs are almost everyday, even chilling with my friends is too fast. I zone out and they think I'm going crazy (more than I already am.)

Ugh. I think I'm just going to get a sprite and watch Family Guy. The only thing that kept me going last night was the damn centipede that nearly raped me! Ugh. This insomniac needs some sleep and some antidepressants. 0_o